Sometimes when I'm all alone, and I am not feeling very responsible, I remember being a little girl, and all the sadnesses and happy things that I felt.
--I remember feeling that everything around me is beautiful. I loved the worms and the patterns on the leaves, the light streaming through the window, and the way it illuminated fibers on the bedspread or the grains on the hardwood floors.
--I remember that sorrow is so pure. Sometimes it's just good to cry just because you didn't get your way. Even though you know that its for the best, sometimes you just want to have a good cry. I remember the sorrow for feeling lonely, frustrated, and hurt--without all the 'grownup' complications.
--I remember the joys of giggling. Life has so many funny things. We are funny beings, with funny moments, the banality of humanity are silly and goofy, even if you are the only one laughing!
--I remember the gift of AWE. It seemed like everything was full and fresh and AWEsome. Life was an adventure waiting every moment of the day. Nothing created was stupid, or not good enough, or undeserving of gratitude. All gifts of life and love, speech and silence, sight and sound were gifts to be received in awe and gratitude.
--I remember the freedom to love. Hugs were given out without a reason--just because you were filled with love. Kisses on the cheek were a delight--just because that cheek was lonely. And all your dollies appreciated all the tender care you put into dressing and caring for them.
--I remember being unashamed of my gifts. Sharing your gifts and talents just because you have them--what else would you do? Hide them?
--I remember being unabashedly pleased with myself when I accomplished something really hard. Glowing with pride and sometimes dancing with joy--all the while never being ashamed for it.
--I remember the simple prayers. Father, I thank thee for my family, and for my dog, please help me to be happy, and to be a good girl...
I wonder if God looks down and thinks "I remember when I was mortal, I couldn't see, I had to just have faith..." I wonder if he ever gets reminiscent and wishes he could go back to not knowing....probably not, but I still wonder....